Dreams of Eternity

When my dreams shattered,
And I didn't know what was left

When the world I knew rejected me,
I dreamed.

<sub>I fell asleep on concrete sheets,
And rested on dirt pillows,
Under leafy dream catchers,
Floating in a green mattress.

I dreamed of the life I knew,
But wasn't strong enough to keep holding onto

The only reason I stayed for so long,
was you.

Now if I woke up,
Would I awake to tears,
Crying because you're not here

Because it was my decision to leave...

Not like the time I left for a year,
Then returned with smiles and new friends
But when my wish of dreaming forever,
And never waking up was granted.

Will I see you in my dreams?

Only because that's all there will ever be anymore.

Unlike the times when I could touch you,
But once never did,
Because I was afraid.

Though now I could touch you,
But you wouldn't feel because I'm only someone who doesn't breathe anymore.
Who doesn't have to cry, because of you.
And who doesn't have to push herself to her limits just to make something of herself.</sub>

Now are you convinced I'm dreaming?